What message do you have for people watching and do you have any advice for young people? (x)
(Source: feyminism, via backonpointe)
Never listen to your scale. Listen to your own body!
Today I had
- Homemade banana oatmeal mug cake w/ peanut butter, a peach
- deep fried chicken steak with noodles in soup
- butter cake one slice
- shrimps, vegetables, lotus root with soup
- some fruit
I am happy with how I did today:)
I didn’t try to restrict myself
Just now, when I wear my pants, I can feel how tight it is, I feel like I am squeezing my thighs into the pants. All of a sudden, a question comes into my mind, “what happened?” seriously, what happened to me? I was doing so well in the first half of 2013. That pants was so loose that I need a belt or it will fall down. It was still pretty loose two months ago. And now it seems to be tighter than ever.
And when I am typing this and recording the feelings I have now, I realized that I have given up myself for the last two months. I decided to give up, I decided to binge, I decided that I would start again tomorrow and I decided tomorrow will never come. It’s me who made this happen. And I am still making mistakes today.
Yes, I don’t want to go back to who I was like half a year ago because it means restrictive diet and control. That was so unhealthy. This time, I really want to lose the weight healthily.
Today I ate better than yesterday
- meal replacement shake with apple
- 2 dinner rolls
- noodles in spicy soup with peanut butter
- deep fried scallion bread (palm size)
- a peach and a banana
- salmon, celery onion stirfry, some vermicelli soup
I know it will be better tomorrow. Don’t give up.
Under what circumstances do you binge eat?
I just found that I will lose control when I feel starved.
I had breakfast at 6:30 yesterday and didn’t eat anything until 1:45.
I remembered that I was so hungry. And after my lunch, I decide to go for some dessert, which turns into huge binge.
That happened to me before.
So maybe for me, a way to prevent binge eating is not to let myself feel too hungry.
Weight loss could be dangerous when you focus solely on the number. I am a typical example. I lost like 30 pounds in 2 years but I did not develop a healthy relationship with food. I used laxatives, I used meal replacement shake, I took diet pills. You name it. I have done it.
And now, after a 2 weeks vacation, I could not get back on track but keep on bingeing like 3-4 times a week. I always think about food, always, like every hour. I think about food when I wake up, put on my makeup, watch tv, shopping. I don’t see the faces of people in the streets, only all those signs of restaurants. I entered one and ate, then I entered another one and ate again. Yes, I hate what I am doing and I feel ashamed. I know I should not do this to myself but I just couldn’t help it.
Binge eating happened now because I restrict my diet in the last few months. Restriction leads to cravings. I was so restrictive that I would weigh my food to calculate to exact amount of calorie I was eating and yes I weighed healthy food like apples.
I weighed and logged myself everyday and plotted graph. If my weight doesn’t drop, I will feel sad that day. I said no when friends invited me to dinner because I want to keep my calorie intake low.
It all backfired now and I am suffering from it. I gained like 8 pounds in two months and all I think of whole day long is food and food only.
I am not going to weigh myself that often anymore. Maybe I will weigh twice a month.
And I am quitting calculating calorie coz obviously I could not do it for the rest of my life.
I hope that this time it’s really gonna be a lifestyle change.
Binge eating food log:
- 2 toasts with tuna, orange
- 2 sunny side up, a slice of toast, hash brown, mushroom, bacon 1 slice, ham 1 slice, tomato an mixed green half a cup, 1/2 sausage
- a medium size croissant
- waffle w/ banana and chocolate sauce
- plain waffle
- red bean cake
- Danish bread
- skim milk
- veggie stir-fry
I know it is horrible.
And if only anyone of you can help or offer some comfort . :(
#binge eating disorder
#i need help
What I have binge eaten
-A Japanese bread filled with corn an jam filling
- a buttery thick toast with peanut butter and jam
- a waffle with matcha ice cream and red bean paste
- two mini croissants
- a chinese style waffle
- two tbsp of peanut butter
I know I should not be eating like that. I feel stomach pain now.
But it’s just so hard for me to make the right choice when the binge starts. I don’t know what trigger binging. :(
Could anyone tell me what I can do to save myself?
"Don’t fear failure so much that you refuse to try new things. The saddest summary of a life contains three descriptions: could have, might have, and should have."